Taking Full Responsibility Of My Life
“The final forming of a person’s character lies in their own hands.”
~ Anne Frank
When I felt the urgency of this lifetime, I dissolved into the palpable aliveness of NOWNESS and awakened with a deep appreciation for life. That light of awakening shed a new understanding to the meaning of responsibility and I arrived in a state of open borderless being. Everything external remains the same, but my internal experiences of everything is changed. I am relating differently and my participation of every moment is live and not rehearsed. My open borderless attention is a natural state in moment to moment.
Yes, the mind still occasionally returns to thinking, planning, anticipating, and projecting. Yet I no longer reject or condemn my thinking mind but simply witness her movement with curiosity and then return to the open borderless being again and again. The returning is the movement that marks the moment of awakening. I no longer blame the external because I am ultimately the decider of how to relate to what is coming in or not. How do you wake up to the urgency of your life?
Try this. Take a closer look at the picture above. There are 4503 boxes in the grid. Each box represents a week. If I live till about 86, those are the number of boxes of weeks I would have. I have already used up more than half of them. What about you? What are you going to do with the rest of the boxes? How would you use this reflection to make changes not out of fear but out of wow?
Check out Tim Uber on TedTalk, he showed this grid at the end of his inspiring talk, “Inside the mind of a master procrastinator”:
P.S. The Chinese characters in the grid mean responsibility and they are pronounced zérèn.